Desire

Friday 2nd April 2021 - 5k - 20:33 - All up 6.7k

Felt really good going out. As the clocks have gone forward now there is extra light & the weather today was phenomenal - about 16 degrees, clear blue skies - it would have been (relatively) too hot to head out for the run earlier in the day - so I decided to have dinner at 18:30 & risk a late 20:30 run, which worked!

I purposefully went out real easy. I've switched my routine back to the healthy early mornings again so I'm trying to wind down in bed for 21:00 & up for just after 04:00, so running at 20:30 is ridiculous.

Anyway, 6:15 coming off the bend & 08:08 + 1st lap in 11:10 but at the same time I was at the TC 2 for 14:34 (I consider a good run to be 14:25 at this point) so this wasn't at all bad.

The finish time is mental as I'm only 30 secs off the PB for the course, so I think back to when I give this route my all & I think, does it really pay to go off that hard - the idea being you'll hold on but it takes so much more mental effort... 10:47 1st lap - I must rethink this... anyways..

I havn't been this happy in months - from about Oct/Nov until very recently I have been "stuck" I would say mentally Re motivation. But now that April is here, my exams are in 6 weeks & a short summer Re getting the move to the UK orchastrated, I feel really motivated & positive about my life now. I am chuffed that I am making it happen, once again, Re my routine & getting after it.

The running is the icing on the cake - I owe the sport so much - for 11 + years now it's brought me so much joy - here's to another 51 years (Assuming I make it to 76 - doesn't seem that unreasonable does it?) Touch wood.

I am uncertain about a cycle today (Saturday) - think I ought to skip the cycle today & focus on another fun 10k run tomorrow - lets see.

I am in a very good place. I hope my future will be as good as I'm feeling at the moment, if so, My life will be actually worth living, actually worth trying & fighting for. I live with this hope. I live, for today.